Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Fresh Breath

Joy to you!
Ah- isn't it lovely to have a fresh breeze today to fill our homes with a a fresh breath. Oh, what a 'fresh breath' we will remember on Easter morning! HE IS RISEN! HE IS RISEN INDEED!
Meanwhile- we hold our breath somehow, or take shallow stale breaths as we wait the Passover season, and Good Friday. Do you notice that there are days, or seasons of our life that we find ourselves living the days with shallow, stale breaths? Beloved- breathe deeply the freshness of our Saviour's Word, through His Holy Spirit- as He daily supplies His freshness....breathe it in...savor His sweet presence... Beloved- He still brings newness, freshness, life- every day, every moment we take the time to Be Still, and know that He is, I AM... He can put a new song into your day... Throw open the window, invite Him in- enjoy~
This morning I was reading in Isaiah again. One of the verses in our 'homework' is in Isaiah- of course- I had to not only read that portion, but the chapter/verses around it too- and wonderfully, they are passages that speak of the coming Saviour, and the process of Redemption, which He willingly attended that we can indeed enjoy Hope...
I tried to narrow down the passages to share- I really did....but there were too many to cut out. Instead, here below are the chapters for you to savor on your own...may His Holy Spirit reveal His Mystery to you in them~
May His grace overwhelm us this week as we meditate on His Great Gift.
Blessed Easter!
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Isaiah 53-55

New American Standard Bible (NASB)

The Suffering Servant

53 Who has believed our message?
And to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed?
2 For He grew up before Him like a tender [a]shoot,
And like a root out of parched ground;
He has no stately form or majesty
That we should look upon Him,
Nor appearance that we should [b]be attracted to Him.
3 He was despised and forsaken of men,
A man of [c]sorrows and acquainted with [d]grief;
And like one from whom men hide their face
He was despised, and we did not esteem Him.
4 Surely our [e]griefs He Himself bore,
And our [f]sorrows He carried;
Yet we ourselves esteemed Him stricken,
[g]Smitten of God, and afflicted.
5 But He was [h]pierced through for our transgressions,
He was crushed for our iniquities;
The chastening for our [i]well-being fell upon Him,
And by His scourging we are healed.
6 All of us like sheep have gone astray,
Each of us has turned to his own way;
But the Lord has caused the iniquity of us all
To [j]fall on Him.
7 He was oppressed and He was afflicted,
Yet He did not open His mouth;
Like a lamb that is led to slaughter,
And like a sheep that is silent before its shearers,
So He did not open His mouth.
8 By oppression and judgment He was taken away;
And as for His generation, who considered
That He was cut off out of the land of the [k]living
For the transgression of my people, to whom the stroke was due?
9 His grave was assigned with wicked men,
Yet He was with a rich man in His death,
Because He had done no violence,
Nor was there any deceit in His mouth.
10 But the Lord was pleased
To crush Him, [l]putting Him to grief;
If [m]He would render Himself as a guilt offering,
He will see His [n]offspring,
He will prolong His days,
And the [o]good pleasure of the Lord will prosper in His hand.
11 As a result of the [p]anguish of His soul,
He will see [q]it and be satisfied;
By His knowledge the Righteous One,
My Servant, will justify the many,
As He will bear their iniquities.
12 Therefore, I will allot Him a portion with the great,
And He will divide the booty with the strong;
Because He poured out [r]Himself to death,
And was numbered with the transgressors;
Yet He Himself bore the sin of many,
And interceded for the transgressors.

The Fertility of Zion

54 Shout for joy, O barren one, you who have borne no child;
Break forth into joyful shouting and cry aloud, you who have not travailed;
For the sons of the desolate one will be more numerous
Than the sons of the married woman,” says the Lord.
2 Enlarge the place of your tent;
[s]Stretch out the curtains of your dwellings, spare not;
Lengthen your cords
And strengthen your pegs.
3 “For you will spread abroad to the right and to the left.
And your [t]descendants will possess nations
And will resettle the desolate cities.
4 “Fear not, for you will not be put to shame;
And do not feel humiliated, for you will not be disgraced;
But you will forget the shame of your youth,
And the reproach of your widowhood you will remember no more.
5 “For your husband is your Maker,
Whose name is the Lord of hosts;
And your Redeemer is the Holy One of Israel,
Who is called the God of all the earth.
6 “For the Lord has called you,
Like a wife forsaken and grieved in spirit,
Even like a wife of one’s youth when she is rejected,”
Says your God.
7 [u]For a brief moment I forsook you,
But with great compassion I will gather you.
8 “In an [v]outburst of anger
I hid My face from you for a moment,
But with everlasting lovingkindness I will have compassion on you,”
Says the Lord your Redeemer.
9 “For [w]this is like the days of Noah to Me,
When I swore that the waters of Noah
Would not [x]flood the earth again;
So I have sworn that I will not be angry with you
Nor will I rebuke you.
10 “For the mountains may be removed and the hills may shake,
But My lovingkindness will not be removed from you,
And My covenant of peace will not be shaken,”
Says the Lord who has compassion on you.
11 “O afflicted one, storm-tossed, and not comforted,
Behold, I will set your stones in antimony,
And your foundations I will lay in [y]sapphires.
12 “Moreover, I will make your battlements of [z]rubies,
And your gates of [aa]crystal,
And your entire [ab]wall of precious stones.
13 All your sons will be [ac]taught of the Lord;
And the well-being of your sons will be great.
14 “In righteousness you will be established;
You will be far from oppression, for you will not fear;
And from terror, for it will not come near you.
15 “If anyone fiercely assails you it will not be from Me.
Whoever assails you will fall because of you.
16 “Behold, I Myself have created the smith who blows the fire of coals
And brings out a weapon for its work;
And I have created the destroyer to ruin.
17 No weapon that is formed against you will prosper;
And every tongue that [ad]accuses you in judgment you will condemn.
This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord,
And their vindication is from Me,” declares the Lord.

The Free Offer of Mercy

55 “Ho! Every one who thirsts, come to the waters;
And you who have no [ae]money come, buy and eat.
Come, buy wine and milk
Without money and without cost.
2 “Why do you [af]spend money for what is not bread,
And your wages for what does not satisfy?
Listen carefully to Me, and eat what is good,
And delight yourself in abundance.
3 Incline your ear and come to Me.
Listen, that [ag]you may live;
And I will make an everlasting covenant with you,
According to the faithful mercies [ah]shown to David.
4 “Behold, I have made him a witness to the peoples,
A leader and commander for the peoples.
5 “Behold, you will call a nation you do not know,
And a nation which knows you not will run to you,
Because of the Lord your God, even the Holy One of Israel;
For He has glorified you.”
6 Seek the Lord while He may be found;
Call upon Him while He is near.
7 Let the wicked forsake his way
And the unrighteous man his thoughts;
And let him return to the Lord,
And He will have compassion on him,
And to our God,
For He will abundantly pardon.
8 “For My thoughts are not your thoughts,
Nor are your ways My ways,” declares the Lord.
9 “For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
So are My ways higher than your ways
And My thoughts than your thoughts.
10 “For as the rain and the snow come down from heaven,
And do not return there without watering the earth
And making it bear and sprout,
And furnishing seed to the sower and bread to the eater;
11 So will My word be which goes forth from My mouth;
It will not return to Me empty,
Without accomplishing what I desire,
And without succeeding in the matter for which I sent it.
12 “For you will go out with joy
And be led forth with peace;
The mountains and the hills will break forth into shouts of joy before you,
And all the trees of the field will clap their hands.
13 “Instead of the thorn bush the cypress will come up,
And instead of the nettle the myrtle will come up,
And [ai]it will be a [aj]memorial to the Lord,
For an everlasting sign which will not be cut off.”

Thursday, March 21, 2013

Compassion & Our Treasures

I've been away from this Blog, but not away from thinking of you. 

My life got more full, and I was herxing.  I change up my Rife treatment every so often- and I must've really gotten into a new layer of buggers!  Which is good, it's just it lays me out for awhile! 

And- with what energy I have to do life- I'm also working on wedding plans for one of our daughters, whose wedding is in about a month and a half! 

And- I've unexpectedly become an author!  It was nothing I sought out as  a whole- but it gained it's own legs; a Lyme pal sent it in to a publisher...another friend underwrote publishing costs-  and here it is now available for purchase. 

I am in wonder!  At how this has come about- and about how it will go forward.  I give it to the LORD, it is His do as He pleases.. My prayer is that it will bring an extra measure of Hope, Comfort, and help in navigating through Lyme treatments. 

Being an author, I have found, to be an awkward task.  Surely whatever is good in this project comes from His hand~

Although I've not been writing- I have been studying the Word... Mostly camping out in the book of Matthew- studying the Teacher, His ways.... I was challenged by a preacher to not only pay attention to these accounts in looking at Jesus' deity- but also His humanity...For Our God is a High Priest who understands our humanity-  Oh praise Him!

Throughout the early part of Matthew, and Jesus' ministry- I have been struck by His Compassion.  To me that has been the overriding theme.  His Compassion- and how He dealt with individuals.  I've particularly noted this in the records of healing-- commonalities I noted are that He dealt individually with the individual- and yet, the encounter benefited those around them (and us yet today). 

Each was a different need, a different response- but Jesus was always a Compassionate, Present, help.  And, in the healings- it was always first to glorify the LORD according to His will; and to build up/encourage the Believers....and as a witness to the unbelieving. 

Of course- I balance the accounts of healing with knowing none of these people are alive on earth today.  Each did pass from this life to the next.  They experienced temporary healing on this earth, and THE healing of healing when they were set free to be with the Lord in Heaven. 

So, will I be healed?  I dont' know about on this earth- I do not know His will; I do know He has the power to do that if He wills it... But, He may choose that I serve Him through weakness, and my healing will be when I enter Heaven some day..  I do not choose to spend a lot of energy speculating and fretting on this.  He knows I would like to be healed. 

But it is all the more important to Him how I live whatever life, kind of life, He has given me.  And if the circumstances I am in drive me all the more to seek His face- maybe it's not so bad?

I've been in Matthew 12 this past week...verses 33-45 today-   I was struck in the first of this selection to self examine what treasures I am holding onto in my heart.  Without a lot of energy to mask things- those 'treasures' are all the more easily uncovered when I open my mouth.  Sadly, there is still plenty of self/flesh in there. 

What I want, how I think things should be, what I think is right/fair, how things should go according to me....Regularly I need to check the vault in my heart to see what needs to be discarded, cleaned-- and to invite that space be taken up more and more by the Holy Spirit (especially after studying again Mtt 12:43-45)!

Well my Beloved- May today you know the Compassion of our Lord Jesus as reality. May you sense His seeing you, touching you, in some particular ways- that you may be encouraged that Our God knows what you are experiencing at the core of your being- and that He desires to meet with you, to heal you in some manner today...For He operates dimensionally and wholly with us.


Tuesday, March 12, 2013


A few days ago, I read this entry in Morning & Evening by Spurgeon:
"Man . . . is of few days, and full of trouble." --Job 14:1

It may be of great service to us, before we fall asleep, to remember this mournful fact, for it may lead us to set loose by earthly things. There is nothing very pleasant in the recollection that we are not above the shafts of adversity, but it may humble us and prevent our boasting like the Psalmist in our morning's portion.

 "My mountain standeth firm: I shall never be moved." It may stay us from taking too deep root in this soil from which we are so soon to be transplanted into the heavenly garden. Let us recollect the frail tenure upon which we hold our temporal mercies. If we would remember that all the trees of earth are marked for the woodman's axe, we should not be so ready to build our nests in them.

We should love, but we should love with the love which expects death, and which reckons upon separations. Our dear relations are but loaned to us, and the hour when we must return them to the lender's hand may be even at the door. The like is certainly true of our worldly goods. Do not riches take to themselves wings and fly away?

Our health is equally precarious. Frail flowers of the field, we must not reckon upon blooming for ever. There is a time appointed for weakness and sickness, when we shall have to glorify God by suffering, and not by earnest activity. There is no single point in which we can hope to escape from the sharp arrows of affliction; out of our few days there is not one secure from sorrow.

Man's life is a cask full of bitter wine; he who looks for joy in it had better seek for honey in an ocean of brine. Beloved reader, set not your affections upon things of earth: but seek those things which are above, for here the moth devoureth, and the thief breaketh through, but there all joys are perpetual and eternal. The path of trouble is the way home. Lord, make this thought a pillow for many a weary head!

What a challenge!  Oh dear- but Lyme Fighters live quite a bit with these life-tensions, many a day in a 'cask full of bitter wine'.  And yes- trying to find 'honey in an ocean of brine' seems impossible, futile...we wonder if there is any honey even sweet enough to keep searching for it!

Beloved- there is such honey.  It is sweet and nourishing- so much so, that even the smallest morsel is satisfying to our very being- our whole being.  The delights may not come often, or in large amounts- they may be hidden in the shroud of 'every day events'-- but they are there. 

To find them, we must continually be tuned in to the LORD- petitioning Him to reveal Himself to us this day- give us ears to hear, eyes to see His presence, His beauty...

And once seen or heard- may the delight we have return to Him as praise, glory and honor- to His delight. 

Today Beloved- may the LORD's presence be your delight as you seek Him-

Psalm 37:4
Delight yourself in the Lord; And He will give you the desires of your heart.

Sunday, March 3, 2013


I confess- I've had a grouchy morning.  And yes, even at, and after church.  No excuse, but I was tired after having done an extra activity yesterday-- and today is payday. 

Before heading out to church, I had a thought come to mind.  One word: dwelling.  I didn't have time to develop the thought further rigth then, but as the morning went on- I began to see more meaning in the word.

Of course, being a wonkish nerd- I had to look up the word dwelling; yes, in more than one source! 

Merriam-Webster says: 'a shelter (as a house) in which people live' and that the word was noted to be used in the 14th century...they also list a wonder list of synonyms and related words...

My app says: a building or place of shelter to live in; abode; home...  originating sometime 1250-1300... Interestingly -in the early usage, it would hold meaning  to lead astray, go astray, to make a fool of

Most interesting to me was noting below this- the definition of dwell: 
-to live of stay as a permanent resident; resides
- to live or continue in a given condition or state
- to linger over, emphasize, or ponder in thought, speech, or writing

Ah, now it was really starting to hit home. 

Yep- Today I was caught 'dwelling', and it wasn't about where I reside physically.  It had to do with where my heart was dwelling...or rather, on what my heart was dwelling... And yes, deception was involved, as it involved my heart. (Jeremiah 17:9  “The heart is more deceitful than all else And is desperately sick; Who can understand it?)

I can tell you today, I wasn't choosing to dwell in the Kingdom of Heaven the LORD has provided for me.  No, I was hanging out in a hovel of hurt and self-pity. 

Obviously- it's time for some house cleaning...again. Seems like with the lead curtain of lyme pulled down over me- darkness can swallow me up so much more quickly... I get tired and my shield of faith slips more easily- and as soon as that happens, those firey arrows come a'flyin!  (Ephesians 6:10-17)

God forgive me for again, for taking my eyes off of You, and choosing to dwell in the shany of my own heart- slapped together with boards of self-pity, anger, self-righteousness, hurt, fear...nailed together with nails of pride...

Tear down these walls LORD- replace them with the bricks of love, peace, joy, mercy, truth, compassion...fill the walls with  Your righteousness, Your glory, Your lovingkidness... with Jesus as its Cornerstone, and Your Holy Spirit its mortar...  may it become my permanent dwelling place here on earth, as I wait until the glorious day You come to take me to the mansion which You've prepared for me. 

In my weakness and affliction, You are gentle, patient, and my Comforter- You see all things and You will give me strength to move forward...out of my self-imposed hut, and into a heavenly dwelling.  My I dwell there.


2 Corinthians 5:1-3

New American Standard Bible (NASB)
5 For we know that if [a]the earthly tent which is our house is torn down, we have a building from God, a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. 2 For indeed in this house we groan, longing to be clothed with our dwelling from heaven, 3 inasmuch as we, having put it on, will not be found naked.
Psalm 73
21 When my heart was embittered
And I was pierced [v]within,
22 Then I was senseless and ignorant;
I was like [w]a beast [x]before You.
23 Nevertheless I am continually with You;
You have taken hold of my right hand.
24 With Your counsel You will guide me,
And afterward receive me [y]to glory.
25 Whom have I in heaven but You?
And [z]besides You, I desire nothing on earth.
26 My flesh and my heart may fail,
But God is the [aa]strength of my heart and my portion forever.
27 For, behold, those who are far from You will perish;
You have [ab]destroyed all those who [ac]are unfaithful to You.
28 But as for me, the nearness of God is my good;
I have made the Lord [ad]God my refuge,
That I may tell of all Your works.